Destiny…loaded word isn’t it? Most of the time I believe in one form of it or another…then there are the times when the whole destiny thing is too hard, and I want to believe in the randomness of the world. However, I do believe that the universe conspires us to go in a certain direction…it has happened too many times for me not to believe it. unfortunately, just because that particular road I am on is the one chosen for me, it does not mean that there are not huge boulders right smack dab in the middle of my way. I think we are given small successes to keep us on the road, and going in the right direction…the pebbles, rocks, and boulders we come across help us to learn and become stronger so we can travel further down the road to our destiny.
I’ve read that one’s destiny is the dream you once had for yourself as a child….before the world cruelly took it from you. I’m not sure that it is true for everyone…maybe you are lucky if you can remember your childhood destiny. I know that it is true for me…the most powerful positive childhood memories for me, all had to do with church, and art…it has taken forty years to get back on that road. Or maybe, I have always been on that road, but the boulders blocked my view. All I can do now is keep travelling…at least now I can see to the horizon.
Another long week is over but next week looks like it holds some promise…keeping my fingers and toes crossed…I have freakishly long toes, lol. I have inspirations this week that were less than pleasant but as the saying goes, it’s all in how you look at it.
1. So the heart tests show no damage to my heart by the sarcoidosis, yeah! However, the drug they gave me meant seven hours in the ER, O2 sats below 80%, and many days feeling like I had an elephant sitting on my chest. Conclusion…heart?, good…lungs?, not so good, major motivation to change my lifestyle.
2. At last at the final draft for the church windows, and I might be able to start working on production this week. Very excited about combining fused glass and stained glass in this project.
3. Bernice, my wife, has to make a choice about whether or not to go take a powerful drug treatment to try to control her crohns. Although it could have powerful side effects, the Dr. told this was her only option to try to improve her condition. I was there when the Dr. told her this, and I could not help wondering if maybe some alternative health practices, and a healthier lifestyle, could not also help to improve her overall health. More motivation to improve our health and lifestyle.
I wish you all good health and a happy upcoming week…
This last week has seen we making, and selling, a few Halloween items and jewelry on my Etsy site. I have also sought and attained the advise of a priest and close friend about some plans for three new windows for a country church. It has been busy, but very satisfying.
1. Discussing the reasons behind my designs actually helps to clarify my vision…so talking to my priest friend about the windows for the country church was very helpful. Talking about future projects gets me excited about my life!
2. Silly I know, but, watching two hours of,” Hoarders,” has made me realise that my house is not that bad…but it has also motivated me to be more organized with my work and my home.
3. I have to control myself with Pinterest…it can be too inspirational. I introduced my wife to it this week…I may have created a monster, lol.
4. Spending 14 hours in the hospital ER has made me realise that my family’s health has to be a top priority right now. My wife’s health is getting worse, but it can be managed by diet. Since I am the one who does the majority of the cooking…I need to focus on a healthy diet.
So I have made a list of things that make me happy…some I can share, some…I can not. It was easy to start the list, the obvious; my wife, family, friends, art work, my children (most of the time 🙂 ). However it became harder after the obvious are taken care of. Like many people, most of the time I’m busy trying to avoid the things that make me unhappy. Then there are all the things that make me happy, but, maybe they are not so good for me…where did all the chocolate go? There are the things that I know in the end will make me happy, but wow, are they a lot of work…you want me to lose how much weight?
When I was younger…and sometimes now…I thought that the best thing to do was to put others first. Now I believe that if I don’t care for myself, then I wont be around to help anyone else. It is easy to forget about yourself when you have small children around, because they need so much care. as they age, and quite frankly don’t want you anywhere near them, it’s easier to gain some perspective. there is nothing wrong with locking the bathroom door, honest. Claire would throw herself against the door, screaming and telling me how she was dying…she is a little melodramatic. If I didn’t lock the door for 30 seconds I would have never had a moment to myself in five years. It is not selfish to take care of yourself…so take care of yourself.:)
I don’t know what it is with me and videos lately, you would think I spend my days on YouTube instead of WordPress, lol. Anyway, I saw this video about the glass that John Pomp makes…with the help of some friends…and it is so beautiful, I had to share. I like where they show him sweating from the heat…I so get that…sadly, not just because of the glass work, damn menopause. 🙂 So here is, John Pomp in the studio.
I understand the welling up of emotion displayed by the narrator of this piece. The first time I saw Monet’s Waterlilies at the Museum of Modern Art in New York, I sat down and cried. I hope I can move someone like that with my art one day…and to do it with light, in the way that Matisse did in this chapel? It is what I strive for each day…maybe by the end of my life. Remember that we are all capable of affecting the lives of those around us.
OK, I admit it, that title is an exaggeration…but I do wonder about the world of Etsy sometimes. I’ve had a shop for less than three months so I am still in the learning, figuring things out, stage…but I have some concerns. Now we have to be quiet, because if they hear me over at the Etsy site, I am going to get inundated by nasty comments from those super sellers. I understand that it takes a lot of work to be successful on Etsy…there are so many artists on there, it is hard for anyone to see your work. So some people have taken to rather extreme measures to make sure that their work is seen by the buyer first. I understand this, they’re trying to make a living, but I draw the line at unethical practices and badgering other sellers. I have not been on the receiving side of any of these practices, yet…I’m still a little fish in a huge pond…I do not pose a threat.
For me, my Etsy shop is a place where I can sell small things that I have made as a way of expressing myself. Don’t get me wrong, it does bring out the competitor in me…but I try to remember that my “real” work is my stained glass installations. I’ve asked myself that, if my Etsy shop were my sole means of income, would I resort to unethical measures to promote myself and increase sales? I hope not, but one never knows what one would do if faced with having to provide for a family, with no other income. I would like to think that I would find another way to provide, something that does not compromise the things I believe in…playing fair, loving your neighbour, and being the person God wants you to be, just to name a few.