Destiny…loaded word isn’t it? Most of the time I believe in one form of it or another…then there are the times when the whole destiny thing is too hard, and I want to believe in the randomness of the world. However, I do believe that the universe conspires us to go in a certain direction…it has happened too many times for me not to believe it. unfortunately, just because that particular road I am on is the one chosen for me, it does not mean that there are not huge boulders right smack dab in the middle of my way. I think we are given small successes to keep us on the road, and going in the right direction…the pebbles, rocks, and boulders we come across help us to learn and become stronger so we can travel further down the road to our destiny.
I’ve read that one’s destiny is the dream you once had for yourself as a child….before the world cruelly took it from you. I’m not sure that it is true for everyone…maybe you are lucky if you can remember your childhood destiny. I know that it is true for me…the most powerful positive childhood memories for me, all had to do with church, and art…it has taken forty years to get back on that road. Or maybe, I have always been on that road, but the boulders blocked my view. All I can do now is keep travelling…at least now I can see to the horizon.
Another long week is over but next week looks like it holds some promise…keeping my fingers and toes crossed…I have freakishly long toes, lol. I have inspirations this week that were less than pleasant but as the saying goes, it’s all in how you look at it.
1. So the heart tests show no damage to my heart by the sarcoidosis, yeah! However, the drug they gave me meant seven hours in the ER, O2 sats below 80%, and many days feeling like I had an elephant sitting on my chest. Conclusion…heart?, good…lungs?, not so good, major motivation to change my lifestyle.
2. At last at the final draft for the church windows, and I might be able to start working on production this week. Very excited about combining fused glass and stained glass in this project.
3. Bernice, my wife, has to make a choice about whether or not to go take a powerful drug treatment to try to control her crohns. Although it could have powerful side effects, the Dr. told this was her only option to try to improve her condition. I was there when the Dr. told her this, and I could not help wondering if maybe some alternative health practices, and a healthier lifestyle, could not also help to improve her overall health. More motivation to improve our health and lifestyle.
I wish you all good health and a happy upcoming week…
O.K., there are a couple of things on my mind today but none of them is worth a full post…must be because my mind in so small, lol.
1. I love the Pay It Forward giveaway. I can’t wait to make my blogging friends something just for them. I am definitely going to make this one an annual event.
2. The pendants I am making for the Womonspace Volunteer Awards, my city’s lesbian group, are finally getting to the finish line, just a little fine tuning now. I will post a pic later this week with the finished products.
3. I am starting to think ahead to Christmas…I know, sorry to all of you who think I just said a dirty word. Apparently up to forty percent of sales on Etsy are between October and two weeks before Christmas…makes sense when you think about it. So fair warning, you may see Christmas theme work in my posts. 🙂
4. I really like the idea behind the bead soup swap…I have to think of a way to do this with some other craft medium. Something to think about for the new year when things are slow.
5. If you add an entire lemon to the Green Juice (Muck) recipe you can barely detect the taste of the lawn. Not great, but at least I’m not retching every time I swallow. Progress 🙂
I understand the welling up of emotion displayed by the narrator of this piece. The first time I saw Monet’s Waterlilies at the Museum of Modern Art in New York, I sat down and cried. I hope I can move someone like that with my art one day…and to do it with light, in the way that Matisse did in this chapel? It is what I strive for each day…maybe by the end of my life. Remember that we are all capable of affecting the lives of those around us.
I know what you’re thinking…does she mean that she is devious, or she likes to do crafts…I mean the second one. I’ve always liked doing crafts, I think I have dabbled in almost every popular one out there. I sewed my seventh grade graduation dress, I knitted and crocheted clothes for both of my children, I’ve made a quilt or two, I have even been known to make candles. the first night of the very first stained glass course I took I knew that I had found the one. The one that makes you dream about colors and textures, of hording piles of materials in your basement, hidden, so the spouse will not know how much you really have. I have not yet got to the point where I start hiding things in the trunk of the car, but I`m getting there.
I can’t help it…the beautiful glass shimmering in the window as the light passes through, changing and evolving as the sun changes its direction. And of course there is the texture…running your hand over the glass and feeling the undulating waves. I’m starting to think this is like fifty shades of grey glass…actually grey glass is not very nice. How about fifty shades of purple glass…no, purple is too expensive, they have to use gold to get the warm colors. It will have to be fifty shades of green glass…yeah, I love green. I understand that not everyone shares my love of glass, well sort of. The way I figure it, everyone feels that way about their chosen craft. I hope you have found yours.
Those of you who read my blog regularly will get the joke…what I am refering to is the kind of shapes I am drawn to. What did she say? yes, shapes, not sexual orientation, although that works too. I once had an art teacher who said there are no straight lines in nature…girrrrl, you preaching to the choir, lol. When I am working on a new project I always seem to make curvy lines instead of straight ones. In stained glass, curvy lines are harder to work with…figures. Even if the design is originally someone elses, I change it to incorporate wavy lines. Much of my work is inspired my nature so I guess it is no surprise.
I have a commission for three windows to go into a country church that calls for straight lines. The other windows in the church are very traditional and they want the new windows to fit into the existing ones, of course, I do too. So for a few months I am going to have to work with straight lines, fine, but I’m not going back into the closet! Girrrrrl, I don’t even know where the closet is any more.